Well my husband did get the batteries for the Lo battery for the weight scale, I got on it and….no drum roles…I had gained 7#’s since I made it to my first goal….I didn’t handle it very well, I basically gave myself permission to up my calories to 1500 to 2000….thought process” wow I made 50#’s ….I am on vacation, at my sisters, why should I keep on such a strict quota?? I deserve to loosen up a little, no problem I lost 50#’s….my rebel also showed up and encouraged me even more, so I did it, no guilt, I had to many excuses, just like ole times….Aghhh….
I was going to wait to weigh until next Friday because I could tell I had put back on weight and I was giving myself a chance, didn’t want to own up, feeling like a failure….reverting back to my old ways…not hiding it, but manipulating it so it would fit in to what I wanted. definitely not living my journey/life change the way I wanted….
Stop it!! Is all I could say…What are you doing??? I had a little talk with myself…and I am here owning up to the weight gain….yes I didn’t want anyone to know that I slipped…badly in my eyes…I knew what I was doing…I justified every bite just like I knew how to do…so frigin easy to slip back to the old ways of living….scary actually…
So I have weighed back in this morning and am pleased to say I have lost 5#’s and back at exercising and ate 997 calories yesterday….so I feel I have it back in control, eating healthy food, and getting my fluids…felling better about myself now that I have owned up to my weight gain…back on my journey full steam ahead….