Smoky Thursday

With all the fires burning in California the wind is blowing smoke our way.  I really feel for the people who have lost their homes…and the fire fighters, really bad this year…the sun was so orange when it set the sky looked like it was on fire too…Hopefully the cooler weather will give them one up on the fire….

Well Thursday was a very good day….cleaned out the garage, well all the old boxes and recyclables, took all the bottles and cans to the recycle center, made 40$ dollars, went out to lunch on our big wind fall…LOL  got a little more packed for our up coming trip, my cousin came over and got all the scoop on the house, she is house sitting for us while we are away…

Food was good…I find that I have stopped eating at 3p the last couple days…full, no need to eat more, calories used…I am still using the popsicles in the evening for my evening food addiction…however I have noticed that I don’t have any urges to eat anymore in the evening…yay…another step in the journey….sometimes my mind floats to the thought of popcorn…but since I have a new partial in my mouth, popcorn has not been my best friend, LOL….so that was for the positive….because I love, love, popcorn anyway you want to make it…

I am at 1126 calories….I did have rice today so I am feeling a heavy tummy this evening and it tipped the scale a little and low and behold I thought I was drinking a zero vitamin water I bought, but I realized halfway through it I grabbed the wrong bottle, its a vitamin water, frigin 100 calories each…Ahhhhh so there went another chunk of useless calories…oh well teach me to pay closer attention….

Exercise, well I am trying to change my thought process and make it more about my health and the positive that comes from doing it…and not the negative thinking….so my newest mantra instead of dread, is yay its time to exercise my joints, loose my weight, feel better, move better, a quote from my friend Billy @                  ” My workouts are not a task, but a labor of love”     this is just a line from his post today and it hit a nerve, made me start thinking about how negative I have been about my exercise…so Thank You Billy for you wonderful post and positive out look on life….I am still doing my exercises through out the day to keep all the strain away from my joints and its working….and I have switched them up a little…added in a couple sets of core…we will see how long my knee will tolerate it…..

Until tomorrow…..

Happy Fourth of July

Can’t beat Johnny Cash and his Rugged Old Flag song for the Fourth of July weekend…

ENJOY THE WEEKEND EVERYONE….Safe and Sane should be on all our minds…its dry out there….

Doing well today after a slow morning…getting a lot done, cleaning house, repotting plants, restocking the cupboards from the pantry…Enjoying the nice cool day we are having…yesterday I woke up feeling ready to go, awake and alert, happy and humming songs….last night I had a cheese sandwich at 9p, (still in my calorie range)….however when I woke up this morning, I had a carb hangover, I could barely get it out of bed at 9a, I need to go back to no eating after 6p, it seems to work for me… after a shower, coffee and vitamins I finally got the pep back in my step…got a lot of work done today I was putting off…

Good calorie intake so far….going back to 4 hours in-between eating again…otherwise its to easy to just keep eating, I am allowing myself to have iced coffees, vitamin waters, water and I made lite minute maid popsicles so I can have as many of those as I want…they are only 5 calories, and its a great substitute if I feel the need to eat….the rebel in me has been fighting with me all week about how I shouldn’t deprive myself of anything!! no matter!!   So between fighting the cravings and urges I mentally feel like a rag at the end of the day sometimes…I am not a weak person mentally,  but when it comes to food, my addiction takes over and I crumble easy….staying on top of it all; part of the process of getting on to a healthy journey….but why does it have to be so frigin hard!?!!  Why isn’t it as easy to loose weight as gain?….the pendulum does not swing fairly…just sayin…

so until tomorrow….

Scale lower by 4#s….yeah

I made it through the cravings last night…water, and more water…got up thinking I didn’t want to wait until tomorrow to weigh in ( I was so sure it was going to be sad news so get it over with)….so I got on the ole scale this morning….and much to my surprise I was down another 4 made me all the happier that I beat the mental cravings I was having…I went to bed last night going over all the reasons why this was happening, stress, anxiety, weakness…finally I started to think about what I  had been eating, Poof!!!  I realized that in the last 4 days, on 2 occasions I had eaten sugar, not natural, but white sugar products…then I remembered seeing on a show the effects white sugar or processed sugars have on your brain.. in the test, half the clients ate white sugar and processed food, the other group natural foods, no white sugars of any kind…the processed/sugar clients lit up a part of  the brain that feeds your addictions and remained lit up for several days,(literally lighting up on the MRI to show that part of your brain that controls cravings/addictions) cravings start as soon as the lit up area starts going dark, back to normal (the other group  in the study showed normal, a dark brain)…so the addict in me cannot handle white sugar…well duh!!!    Why am I in the predicament I am in if not for over eating the wrong foods…so that behind me, no more sugar unless its natural and then in only small amount.

I had a great day….my home made stuffed bell peppers were yummy!!  Worked in my yard,,, working on my rock garden…so all in all I am pretty happy with myself…..only one bottle of water left to go and a bowl of fruit and yogurt waiting for me….so until tomorrow…its .one day at a time….

craving something more….hmmmm

Not sure what it is I want…can’t put my finger on it…but I made my self some stuffed bell peppers for lunch tomorrow, something homemade, I have been eating Amy’s frozen meals, lots of salads, lots of fruit and yogurts, and omelets  but no comfort foods…I think that is what I am hungry for…some good ole down home cooking…this is the first time I have had any cravings since I started my new journey….could be, its late, its night and I have always did all my eating late night…so I will drink more water, finish my exercise for the day and be off to bed happy knowing that I have stayed in my calorie target range….

tomorrows another day…..